Spelling

I have a low tolerance for the correction of spelling and grammar- I’ll tell you why.

I don’t know how to write myself.
All through school I did poorly: I struggled to remember things, struggled to sit still and pay attention (it didn’t help that the subject matter was excruciatingly boring and offensive to my senses), struggled especially with math, and I struggled learning grammar rules and spelling. No child dreams of dissecting sentences instead of hunting for bugs, but some seemed able to put up with the work, and I wasn’t.

I barely passed high school. I got bad grades on most of my essays and was a pain in nearly every teachers backside. Teachers called me lazy and unmotivated nearly every day, until I eventually learned to just give up putting effort out, since it wasn’t worth it. I walked out of high school with a diploma thanks to several hard earned D’s, and a little doing what needed to be done to get out of my prison.

I didn’t learn how to write at school. It wasn’t until I gave up trying to write correctly, that I started writing things others enjoyed. I stopped worrying about the format, anticipating the way editors would butcher it, my spelling and grammar, and just let it flow.

My writing is not writing, but just my thoughts pulled onto paper, and if I had to stop to organize them as “good writing,” they would flit away, like a bird when you get too close.

I believe everyone’s brain is wired differently. I’ve got a thing with numbers and directions and spelling-
Sometimes my autocorrect can’t even help me cause the word I’ve spelled isn’t close enough to reality to help me out.

Its been that way for 33 years, my brain, and I’ve stopped fighting it. After having the school system drill into my self esteem for my young life, I’ve stopped believing that scholarly ability is the only way to be smart. This brain and I have got to get along.

On any given article I write, you can probably find ten spelling errors and twenty grammatical errors.

Everyone is different, and sure, there is a right way and a wrong way to do things, maybe an objective “good and bad.” But if the writing stirs you, I hope you can find a way to see the beauty in the message for what it is- maybe not just in regards to spelling, but those around you with much to offer, packaged in a way you may have been programmed not to see.

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2 thoughts on “Spelling

  1. I can relate… from a young age I was always wrong and was told so by my mother, then in school from some teachers, I learn by seeing and doing and to this day i strive to be right in my own way like you and your creative writing, thanks for sharing the deep stuff.

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  2. Good morning Amy,

    I think you write beautifully. Every time I read one of your articles, some thing resonates. Please keep doing what you do.

    Marie

    Sent from my iPhone

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